Lighter

I purged all that hate for you. All that confusion. Violently pressed keys until the blank document was full. Each word less heavier. Lighter on my shoulders. Shifting that overbearing weight from my heart. Leaving you behind bit by bit. It’s all behind me now. Lost in the past of forbidden memories and regretful choices. … More Lighter

Therapy

I write you a letter. A letter I will never send you. I give it a title. The story of us. A letter goodbye. But there was never an ‘us’. It’s the ugly truth written down. Purging the hate from my body. It’s taking longer than I expected. Everyday I seem to hate you a little bit … More Therapy

The Aftermath

the painful ache in my stomach that sinking heavy heart never ending depths of emptiness makes me fall apart a name I can never forget the haunting pretty smile the warning in my gut ignored why didn’t I run a mile?  

The Worst

I’m sitting on the train. My iPod has died. I need the music to drown out my thoughts. Thoughts that are killing me. Splitting my heart. Shattering it into many pieces. A tear rolls down my cheek. Another. A woman glances over me. Please don’t ask if I’m OK. I don’t deserve the kindness. I’m … More The Worst

Getting Over You

I think I’m getting over you until I drink too much and I realise I’m staring at a sunset in a foreign country and I start crying from the sadness I feel in the depths of my stomach. I think I’m getting over what we did until I see your online and you ignore me. I … More Getting Over You

I’m Done

So it’s all over now babes. We picked that date. One last time. One last go. Then your silence kills it. I get it now my darling. This is the problem. I want it too much. And you don’t want it enough. That kills me. You have killed me. I have never felt so empty. … More I’m Done