Lighter

I purged all that hate for you. All that confusion. Violently pressed keys until the blank document was full. Each word less heavier. Lighter on my shoulders. Shifting that overbearing weight from my heart. Leaving you behind bit by bit. It’s all behind me now. Lost in the past of forbidden memories and regretful choices. … More Lighter

The Aftermath

the painful ache in my stomach that sinking heavy heart never ending depths of emptiness makes me fall apart a name I can never forget the haunting pretty smile the warning in my gut ignored why didn’t I run a mile?  

The Worst

I’m sitting on the train. My iPod has died. I need the music to drown out my thoughts. Thoughts that are killing me. Splitting my heart. Shattering it into many pieces. A tear rolls down my cheek. Another. A woman glances over me. Please don’t ask if I’m OK. I don’t deserve the kindness. I’m … More The Worst

I’m Done

So it’s all over now babes. We picked that date. One last time. One last go. Then your silence kills it. I get it now my darling. This is the problem. I want it too much. And you don’t want it enough. That kills me. You have killed me. I have never felt so empty. … More I’m Done

Back and Forth

I do it all on my own now darling. I keep coming back for more and you do not even have to do anything. What’s happened to me? When did I become this crazy, this thirsty, this hungry for that satisfaction? How the roles have changed. Before it was you, now I’m the one always … More Back and Forth

Disconnected

A never-ending blank stare the water burns but I feel no pain that smile of yours hurts though a stabbing pain in the chest when I see you with her even though I’m with him ‘I Love You’ is echoed back but I feel nothing. The ‘seen’ notification haunts me the message remains unanswered say … More Disconnected

Empty

When the message never came, and you never replied. I knew it had all changed. A waste. A waste of my time. I bared my body and my soul. Greedy man gorged on it. Licked, kissed and sucked it all until there was nothing left but the rushing blood in my veins, the erratic heart … More Empty

And it’s scary…

And it’s scary when the things you said would never happen Happened And it’s scary when you said nothing would ever change Did And it’s scary when you start to ignore me Why? And it’s scary when you lavish your attention elsewhere Replaced And it’s scary when I realise that I was used Lie And … More And it’s scary…

I Want Me

I think that’s the worst thing about it. I lost myself. And when I lost myself I lost it all. You burst into my life and blind sighted me. I was completely shattered. I felt crazy. You made me feel crazy. I didn’t think about anything but you. Couldn’t think about anything but you. Now … More I Want Me

Define Yourself

And sometimes it can be the smallest, most insignificant moment ever when you sit back and realise that your not are happy. You are not happy with the life you are living. It hits you that if you died tomorrow, that you could not truly say ‘Yes, I was happy with the way things were … More Define Yourself