Lighter

I purged all that hate for you. All that confusion. Violently pressed keys until the blank document was full. Each word less heavier. Lighter on my shoulders. Shifting that overbearing weight from my heart. Leaving you behind bit by bit. It’s all behind me now. Lost in the past of forbidden memories and regretful choices. … More Lighter

Therapy

I write you a letter. A letter I will never send you. I give it a title. The story of us. A letter goodbye. But there was never an ‘us’. It’s the ugly truth written down. Purging the hate from my body. It’s taking longer than I expected. Everyday I seem to hate you a little bit … More Therapy

The Aftermath

the painful ache in my stomach that sinking heavy heart never ending depths of emptiness makes me fall apart a name I can never forget the haunting pretty smile the warning in my gut ignored why didn’t I run a mile?  

The Worst

I’m sitting on the train. My iPod has died. I need the music to drown out my thoughts. Thoughts that are killing me. Splitting my heart. Shattering it into many pieces. A tear rolls down my cheek. Another. A woman glances over me. Please don’t ask if I’m OK. I don’t deserve the kindness. I’m … More The Worst

A Tree

‘Don’t give up. You know you can do this.’ She tells me for the second time that day. I give her a small smile in return knowing she is trying so hard to keep me motivated. To stop me from panicking like I had earlier to the point where I just wanted to quit and … More A Tree