Lighter

I purged all that hate for you. All that confusion. Violently pressed keys until the blank document was full. Each word less heavier. Lighter on my shoulders. Shifting that overbearing weight from my heart. Leaving you behind bit by bit. It’s all behind me now. Lost in the past of forbidden memories and regretful choices. … More Lighter

Therapy

I write you a letter. A letter I will never send you. I give it a title. The story of us. A letter goodbye. But there was never an ‘us’. It’s the ugly truth written down. Purging the hate from my body. It’s taking longer than I expected. Everyday I seem to hate you a little bit … More Therapy

The Aftermath

the painful ache in my stomach that sinking heavy heart never ending depths of emptiness makes me fall apart a name I can never forget the haunting pretty smile the warning in my gut ignored why didn’t I run a mile?  

The Worst

I’m sitting on the train. My iPod has died. I need the music to drown out my thoughts. Thoughts that are killing me. Splitting my heart. Shattering it into many pieces. A tear rolls down my cheek. Another. A woman glances over me. Please don’t ask if I’m OK. I don’t deserve the kindness. I’m … More The Worst

I’m Done

So it’s all over now babes. We picked that date. One last time. One last go. Then your silence kills it. I get it now my darling. This is the problem. I want it too much. And you don’t want it enough. That kills me. You have killed me. I have never felt so empty. … More I’m Done

Disconnected

A never-ending blank stare the water burns but I feel no pain that smile of yours hurts though a stabbing pain in the chest when I see you with her even though I’m with him ‘I Love You’ is echoed back but I feel nothing. The ‘seen’ notification haunts me the message remains unanswered say … More Disconnected

And it’s scary…

And it’s scary when the things you said would never happen Happened And it’s scary when you said nothing would ever change Did And it’s scary when you start to ignore me Why? And it’s scary when you lavish your attention elsewhere Replaced And it’s scary when I realise that I was used Lie And … More And it’s scary…

I Want Me

I think that’s the worst thing about it. I lost myself. And when I lost myself I lost it all. You burst into my life and blind sighted me. I was completely shattered. I felt crazy. You made me feel crazy. I didn’t think about anything but you. Couldn’t think about anything but you. Now … More I Want Me

Nostalgia

We suddenly got older – but the wisdom teeth never gave us any wisdom and the long lost days of innocent bliss were out of reach, ignorance was a gift that I wasted wistful daydreams of freedom are now faded and worn with the hard smiles and tired eyes I carry on with that path … More Nostalgia

Regret

If you asked me my middle name, I would answer with Regret. But not for what you think. Regret for all the things I’ve done. Yes, of course. Regret for all the things I haven’t done. Definitely. What about all the things I wished I had done? Absolutely. The opportunity has slipped through my fingers. I let … More Regret