Lighter

I purged all that hate for you. All that confusion. Violently pressed keys until the blank document was full. Each word less heavier. Lighter on my shoulders. Shifting that overbearing weight from my heart. Leaving you behind bit by bit. It’s all behind me now. Lost in the past of forbidden memories and regretful choices. … More Lighter

Therapy

I write you a letter. A letter I will never send you. I give it a title. The story of us. A letter goodbye. But there was never an ‘us’. It’s the ugly truth written down. Purging the hate from my body. It’s taking longer than I expected. Everyday I seem to hate you a little bit … More Therapy

The Aftermath

the painful ache in my stomach that sinking heavy heart never ending depths of emptiness makes me fall apart a name I can never forget the haunting pretty smile the warning in my gut ignored why didn’t I run a mile?  

The Worst

I’m sitting on the train. My iPod has died. I need the music to drown out my thoughts. Thoughts that are killing me. Splitting my heart. Shattering it into many pieces. A tear rolls down my cheek. Another. A woman glances over me. Please don’t ask if I’m OK. I don’t deserve the kindness. I’m … More The Worst

Define Yourself

And sometimes it can be the smallest, most insignificant moment ever when you sit back and realise that your not are happy. You are not happy with the life you are living. It hits you that if you died tomorrow, that you could not truly say ‘Yes, I was happy with the way things were … More Define Yourself

A Blessing and a Curse: The Downfalls of Having Too Much Choice

After finishing my English degree after three years and awaiting to start my post graduate teaching qualification in the Further Education sector, you would think that I had this all planned out. That I had known from a young age that this was what I was going to end up doing. The truth is since school, I’ve … More A Blessing and a Curse: The Downfalls of Having Too Much Choice

A note to you

Those three simple words make my day. Even though they are simple, the meaning behind them is what brings me happiness when I feel like the world is against me. You are always behind me, to push me, to catch me if I stumble and spur me on. No price can be put on that. … More A note to you

Freaking out!

Just had a major freak out. I go back to university to start my third and final year at the end of this month and I feel so unprepared for my upcoming modules! Before i broke up for the summer I had it all planned. I was going to get a good start on my … More Freaking out!